1 - All the "Fat" names were taken

I had decided to call this blog "My Fat Ass" but I'm coming into this blogging game way too late in the third quarter for that url to still be available. I toyed with a few other titles including "Fat Like Me" (oh so clever and oh so overdone) and finally settled on "Heavy Me." And I like it because it's so indicative of how ambivalent I am about my size.

I know there are a significant number of people who would call me fat. But I don't identify with that word. I really don't. I think it's because I've always pretty much resided in that middle ground. I haven't been thin since sometime predating puberty. After that I was always, not fat but not thin. Now, weighing in at 226lbs last time I checked (and I'm only 5'5") I somehow still don't think I'm fat. Some people might call me delusional but I think I have an idea in my head of what "fat" is and I don't feel like I fit that idea. And I carry a lot of weight in my chest (grin).

Of course this brings up the issue of how subjective labels like "fat," "thin," and "normal" are. There is a great deal that is arbitrary about those concepts. But I'll get into the high brow later. This is just an introduction. In the course of this blog, I hope to cover topics like medical issues, obesity vs fatness, size and the media, what is actually average and all sorts of other fun topics. Of course you get to come along on my journey of...well whatever the journey turns out to be. I can't guarantee that it'll be weight loss. It might just be weight maintenance. If nothing else I hope it'll be a journey of self-acceptance. Cheesy, but true.

I am going to take pictures...but I'm not going to post them right away. I am going to take candid (black mailing exes unite) and not so candid shots. I want you to someday have an idea of what this journey looks like in my body (because I know a lot of other people are taking the same road but in different skin suits). But first I want you to get to know what goes on inside my head. We'll get to the pictures later. But I promise the pics will be taken and they will some day be posted.